It feels like people only keep me around because I'm convenient...
It's a very lonely feeling...
I can't help it though...

I don't know why I feel so worthless. I shouldn't base my value off of other people but even I have a hard time believing I'm worth having...

I don't know who I'm trying to impress, but I feel like I'll never be good enough. I just don't believe I'll ever achieve anything I want and it pushes me that much further away from the few goals I actually do have...

I wish I could talk to someone about it all... I just know that I couldn't, even if I tried.

Why is it hurting? Sigh. I'm lost. I'm scared. I'm alone.

I don't know what to do... I've never felt closer to giving up on life...

God.. this secret couldn't possibly be any truer... sigh.
I just don't know what I'm doing anymore... And I don't know how to change.
I'm so confused... That's why I just try not to think at all.

I hurt him... I didn't mean to do it, but I did. I feel awful about it...
But he hurt me back. He ignored me and disappeared on me for 10 days. I didn't like it at all... It felt like before... It hurt me so bad. And I missed him so much. I actually cried a bit over it all.

But if he knew what happened, I think he'd be hurt all over again... I need to stop. But this is all so hard. I just don't know anymore... sigh.

I'm just not happy.

I feel so lost... so confused...

I just don't know anymore.

I want to fly. I want to feel free.