I opened up last night as much as I could. I don't think he realized just how hard it was for me. I did my best, though maybe I should've waited until my best was better.

I'm scared that it'll change things for the worse. With M, the moment I disclosed my feelings was the moment he began pulling away. I'm scared that it'll happen again.

But at the same time, I'm scared that nothing will change and I'll just be stuck like this forever.

He was so sweet last night. He said he cared about me so much.He said I was too good for him. He said he was afraid of losing me. He said he just wanted me to be happy.

But I just don't know.