God.. this secret couldn't possibly be any truer... sigh.
I just don't know what I'm doing anymore... And I don't know how to change.
I'm so confused... That's why I just try not to think at all.

I hurt him... I didn't mean to do it, but I did. I feel awful about it...
But he hurt me back. He ignored me and disappeared on me for 10 days. I didn't like it at all... It felt like before... It hurt me so bad. And I missed him so much. I actually cried a bit over it all.

But if he knew what happened, I think he'd be hurt all over again... I need to stop. But this is all so hard. I just don't know anymore... sigh.

I'm just not happy.